other people

lately i've been hanging out with the same group of friends from high school, if lately means for the past 2 years. during that time i hardly ever saw my college buds, or any other friends for that matter, since they were all busy and i was pretty comfy already with my hangout buddies.

well, what makes it easier is the fact that these guys are always free. not just some of the time, but any time. and that something special about them is that they are, more or less, bums. either recently graduated, still studying albeit moderately, or in between jobs for quite a while. of course, this sometimes leads to a lack of sensitivity to our situations, and also the fact that 3 young adults with nothing to do are bound to cause some sort of problem. like hanging out at their high school, corrupting a younger generation and whatnot. now i don't condone nor condemn, but it's a different viewpoint from my college buds, who are quite career oriented right now, which is one of the reasons i have a bit of difficulty fitting in, what with being stuck in semi-bumness mode by joining the family business as an executive assistant. hearing them talk about who's working where, what kind of work they're doing for the company, or even just them talking makes me feel that i'm missing out on this exciting world where you actually do things, if that makes any sense, and the fact that they all have larger salaries than i do, and that kinda digs it in.


last night i went to this singles church ministry, just to see what it was like, and also partly because i haven't actually spoken to someone i don't know for the longest time. and, well, it was basically a church service, although there were a few quirks, like semi-gameshow games, like spelling out things using people, skits, singing and whatnot. there's also a sharing part where you get into groups of 5 and they give you these 'profound' questions about life and God and how it all relates to you. that i wasn't too fond of, if people have noticed that i keep things to myself, that's basically because i DO keep things to myself.

one thing i noticed though is that it doesn't matter where you are, what church you're in, but all the formulas are basically the same. all Christian ministries have the same feel, use the same words, try to evoke the same emotions, so i, having graduated from a christian school, could just as easily play along with what i've learned during high school. thing is, even the 'way' they say things are similar, and then it hits you that all of them are basically the same. that everyone's voice changes from when they're just talking and they're sharing, that all pastors put the same emphasis on the same words when they preach, and praise and worship songs either sound old or overly cheerful, and those that aren't never seem to be as good as secular songs, and they always have a common theme when it comes to their lyrics.

and that's when it hits you that Christians are probably all similar wherever you go, and that's why they always stress their feeling of being a community.